有个傻瓜

有个傻瓜。
傻傻的，等着不可能开花结果的树。
傻傻的，告诉他，我会做你的耳朵，在你需要人聆听你的时候。
傻傻的，装冷静的分析着他与她之间的问题，很清高的告诉他，爱，不能轻易的放弃。
傻傻的，七情六欲都被他的简讯牵动着；因为收到他的简讯而欢喜，因为等不到他的简讯而情绪低落。
傻傻的，要他答应，会好好的，小心的照顾自己，不让在乎他的人担心。

傻傻的，傻瓜。

疯

快疯掉了，救我~
被现实与梦想缠绕着。。。

In Memory of Yasmin Ahmad..R.I.P

*Lord, may u held her soul close to thee, spare all her sins and grant her with great new life...R.I.P, Yasmin Ahmad, the ever great filmmaker, producer and nature lover*


I must admit, during her critical moment, i wasn't aware at all, i was in a break back home.Then, out of a sudden, i realize that my friend's msn was wrote with the verse:
"R.I.P, Yasmin Ahmad"

i guess, it must be a joke or something, then i rapidly look in to the google. It was then, the news of her death strike me hard on the head. How could possibly be true that she is dead?

Many among my friends will not understand the pain i felt for her death,not even my so called soulmate.

But to those who have been with me from my uni time, they will understand.

I was so felt for her production ever since i saw her 1st commercial during all the nation celebration like CNY, Raya and Deepavali. Her commercials have been the most attractive ones that i have ever seen that i will stop all stuff in my hands just to watch the commercials produced, directed by her. All her commercials, drove me with floors of tears.

It was then i felt so excited during all the festive celebrations because i knew her commercial ad will be published.

All the while, i followed her moves and news and then i found out that she will be releasing her 1st ever film called "Rabun" which she dedicated to her loving parents that she wanted to tell stories about them to the others. Due to some circumstances, i missed on the movie but i gotta watch it thru VCD and the film was equally amazing and touching as her commercials ad though lots of the so called film critics have harshly said that her movie was piece of crap not realising that the real crap is actually their own self.

Not long after this, she realise another hit film that make her famous in a night's time which is called "Sepet" showing the interracial love relationships among one Malay girl and one Chinese guy; depiction to her real life story of herself and the Chinese husband she was married to.


"Sepet" is the first ever Malay or so called local production that i am willing to pay to watch it in cinema for 3 times and even brought the original VCD for my own collection. I was so felt in love with her sensitive and minor touch she put in the movie and make it a great yet touching movie to be watch. I was so in love in the movie that when during my final year thesis writing, i have choosen to explore and talk about the issue of interracial relationship in the movie.

Ever since, i felt for all her production, her sincerity, her observation that shown in her movie.

"Gubra" as the sequal for "sepet" to mend the broken ending.

"Mukhsin" as the pre sequal of explaning why Jason felt in love in Orked at first sight.


And her new movie in town, "talentime".

But all this has come to an end, the great producer,director has left the world with all her great works that i guess no one will ever be doing it like the way she did it.

NST Online Yasmin Ahmad dies



R.I.P, Yasmin.

傻瓜

把这首歌献给他，那个，有点点喜欢的他~


要记得我们曾经在msn里玩着这首歌的歌词比赛~

加班记

朋友常常问自己怎么几乎每天都会加班的呢？
真的这么多东西要做吗？

嗯。。。
其实啊，除了有时真的有突发事件而必须在明天之前把报告给赶出来以外，
大部分的加班都是用来干自家的事滴。。而这又简称为“阿里巴巴”加班。。。。
呵呵呵呵呵呵。。。。。

今天当然也不例外，很“努力”的加班。。。
接近8点的时候，办公室就只剩下自己跟加班常客，肥仔kelvin两人。
于是就不必再假勤劳。。。。可以开始自由活动
首先，摇了个电话个给后面楼上的马来食堂（没办法咯，酱的时间，又不能出去吃饭而又要医肚子的唯一方法就只有酱的咯），点了个maggi goreng ayam。包埋送到家才花自己RM3.50.简直就是天堂~呵呵呵呵呵呵。。。。。
在等待食物送来的当儿，当然就是要开始自己的打机大作战。
目前让自己天天茶饭不思的热门游戏，当然就是fb里的几个游戏咯。

restoran city~
Pet society~


正所谓，快乐不知时日过，悄悄的，楼上的印度阿哥已经把自己热腾腾的maggi goreng ayam 送到面前。。。。。
于是就边打机，边吃着热腾腾的炒面~

今天的炒面很赞哦~鸡肉也好好吃哦~
再加上早上司机到另一个食堂给黑皮光头老板带回来的姜茶（放在保温壶里，所以还是热热的）
就酱一路到十点。。。有得吃，有得玩，还有得赚~
呵呵呵呵呵呵。。。。这样的生活~付复何求啊~

The Climb

This is created when the song is sang better by the others。

I guess i will definitely love this one more than the original ones. Thanks to Fish

钱与梦想

人说，讲钱伤感情。
的确。
这几天，自己伤了无数人的感情。
因为自己不善于理财，导致自己今天的下场。
负债累累。
而自己想成为化妆师的梦想，也因为这个原因，也只能无限期延迟。

但，
我还有多少年能等待？

难道要到了为人妻，为人母甚至是为人祖时才来说要追梦？
太迟了吧？ 就算到时候你多么有才华与实力都好，人们都只会觉得你是个不入流的老年化妆师。
更何况我不确定自己是不是像别人所说的，有双会化腐巧为神奇的手。


每个月的出粮日是自己最为难受的日子，因为无论在上个月你如何的勤劳干活都好，那些工资终究会流到欠卡债的银行里。

于是，在工作疲劳于金钱压力的轰炸之下，我坐在车上，望着前方的夜空，听着Matchbox Twenty 的 Unwell，掉眼泪。

为什么？

也许我真的快要疯了。

这种日子还要多久？

我好想把自己埋起来，不去看，不去听，不去感受。

而就连最佳避风港的家,也在此时遗弃了我。

就是因为他们永远不能相信这个曾经隐瞒，欺骗过他们的女儿能够让他们安心，让他们放心。

而自己也不过想让他们不再为自己担心。

然而，这也顿时变成了他们眼里的恶意隐瞒及存心欺骗。

我明白，再多的解释也无能为我带来谅解。

只想要说，我爱你们。无论如何，我爱你们。